I am reminiscing the good times in school, uni, basically my younger years. I am almost 28 and I don't feel like I am 28. I am constantly thinking about wanting my family's emotional support and just that sense of lack of independence. I have been living with him for almost 5 years this coming February and I am occasionally , if not always thinking about home. Going home is never my option in terms of live style and career. However, live style includes family and friends. We have friends here and ...friends. We are basically by ourselves. We are going to be married soon, and my married friends are about to have her baby soon. She said to me, our biological clock is ticking and that our fertility is limited to this next 10 years.

This is such a cross road for me. One side of me wants so badly to do something else other than being a retail pharmacist and as what they say we pharmacist do, - sticking labels on boxes. Oh, to make it sound better, we do more than sticking labels on boxes. We also keep customers happy by running ourselves around, trying to keep up with deadline, workload and of course to keep the customers smiling when they leave the store. What sort of job is this??? Pretty shitty i say.

I am whining and whinging about almost everything of my job.

Everything we have right now were results of the decisions we made in the past.